Friday, April 30, 2010
Heyy, planned to re-edit my blog..but got too lazy halfway...-.-Will do it soon:)
TTFN, gotta rest coz I'm dead beat tired and I'm gonna hve to do much for the next few days:(
Have a great weekend:)
♥andrea♥
♥My right to speak. My right to love♥ 7:48 PM
Thursday, April 29, 2010
You know what? Let me just cruise through life.I will know how to remember the right memories, forget the painful ones. I will know how to cherish those I love. I will let myself go at one point of time.
I will let myself be sincere when I need to and when I get the chance to.
Right now, I realise:
"I'M NOT SCARED OF WHAT I FEEL. I'm scared of what YOU don't."
This dawned on me after so much reflection. I really don't want history to repeat itself. Once bitten, twice shy.
"It doesn't seem right to hurt yourself. Its better to be safe."
All my life, I've been thought to play safe. I admit, I'm not a risk taker. I'm always scared when the stake is too high. This is the problem I face. BUT IT HAS CAUSED ME MUCH MORE HURT THAN JOY.
My advice to people out there: Take the risk.
For all you know, it might be worth it. If not, you still gain. The "faliure" becomes a learning point. A moment of realisation. As they say, there are no faliures-just learning experiences. And yes, this will take time to be instilled in your head. Talking the talk is easier than walking the walk.
But falling is a way for us to learn.
There must be a balance of the good and bad in life. You can imagine: If someone was to get everything he/she wanted, he/she would be such an arrogant and egoistic person. On the other hand, if someone always had it bad, he/she will be contemplating on suicide right now. So if there is a balance between the good and bad in life, one would be well rounded. He would know how to pick himself up when he is down and he would know how not to hold his head up too high.
And despite all this, I know somehow, Iwon't have the guts to acomplish the task that I want to.
Its hard. I won't lie coz I shouldn't and I really can't lie right now. This little space I have in the net. My only outlet to the world without being degraded by my parents. I know and understand them but, time are changing. I'm not THAT irresponsble to not prioritise. At least I'm no longer like that.
But how do I make this hint of love? And what more to the person who probably expects it the least for me to reflect his feelings?
You know, the most amazing things can be the most complicated to understand. Love is a wonderful thing. Its how everyone came into the world. How we still have hope. But it really is a complicated thing. It won't be easy.
But I know one thing. ASAP♥ [Always Say A Prayer]
♥andrea♥
P.S. I wish to talk to you real soon♥
♥My right to speak. My right to love♥ 4:27 PM
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
OMG.Guess what? Things are getting weirder and weirder. Seems like SOMEONE is falling for HIM. hmmm, wahh...
Hais, this life is so repeated. Soon, there'll be "I'm sick of waitng!" Quotes again and stuffs...
haha, lets watch this drama unfold:):)
Anyways, I really feel low today. As in, I really really feel like I need to talk to someone. ANYONE. Gawd, I miss talking to those people who can really brighten up your day:/
Weird much? hahahaha...
We had prefects' auditions just now. ROUND 2 C:
Hais, the thought of the board is soooo depressing...
But I know all I have to do is pray:)
Anyways, if I'm not wrong, I don't have a test tomorrow but I do have homeworks dued...hmmm...
Guess, I'll just go and enjoy myself a little bit then start on my work:)
♥andrea♥
P.S. I really really don't and won't express my feelings until I can confirm how the other party feels. And that can only happen when I hear them say it. Why am I saying this? I don't know. There is only one person I am directing this to. [OMG, it doesn't even seem right - no, on all levels, it MAY NOT really be right. But you seem to be the one who can really brighten up my days:) You may be the only exception(^^)] And the sad thing is, we never REALLY talk in person. Hais...Bakit ba ikaw pa? Sa lahat ng tao na puwede ko'ng mahalin, ikaw pa ang napusuan ko? Ano ba ang buhay na ito! :(
♥My right to speak. My right to love♥ 6:13 PM
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Times can be really hard when as a teen we fall out of love.
But one thing is definitely for sure.
WE CAN AND ALWAYS WILL, MOVE ON.
To my darling friend, I know you've been through alot and you might say you're going through hell. But sweetie, you deserve so much more.
"Guys don't deserve our tears. And the one who does won't make you cry."
Such a wonderful friend like you deserves to laugh more than she cries.
"When the Lord breaks your heart, be thankful. Coz maybe he's just saving you from the WRONG ONE"
You don't deserve to be treated this way. You are a jewel on your own and whichever person mining out there who doesn't realise that has lost much more than he can ever gain in a lifetime. Believe me, you are so special, and God made you to see you smile and make others smile along with you.
“It's possible to go on, no matter how impossible it seems, and that in time, the grief . . . lessens. It may not go away completely, but after a while it's not so overwhelming”
So many people are behind you, cheering you on. Remember that I am one of them.
Be strong ok babe? ♥♥andrea♥
♥My right to speak. My right to love♥ 6:26 PM
Friday, April 23, 2010
Heyy, I got loads of things to burn. If any CCA has a campfire coming up, please do inform me:)
Ok, ya, that was totally lame-.-
Anyways, the last OFFICIAL ACTIVITY for Guides was just now:(
Today would be as memorable as the first day I went for guides(:
Totally tired, but I'm forced to finish up at least my amaths homework by tonight.
I totally know that I won't be able to do much tomorrow.
ANyways, I might upload more pics in facebook...-.-
More people are making accounts, and its getting easier to stalk people there too-.-
Booooo!!! :(
I also wonder how my school did for the Sepak Takraw finals just now...hmmm :/
I still remember Mr Nahar's advice to us the day before the game:
"Remember, of you are going to be a spectator of the game, you are watching a takraw game. This is not RUGBY. We, takraw players, don't fight against our opponents. When we are winning we cheer. When we are loosing, we cheer even louder."
Then Sophia gave me that look and we just burst out laughing....(inside joke)
MwuahahahaC:
Anyways, NPCC POP today was AWESOME!!! C: I feel so jelous that they can step down already...hais, my POP has been postponed to 21 May-.- That's like a month from the original day...zzzzzz....
Well, I'd better go now, if not, I would totally collapse tomorrow-.-
♥andrea♥
P.S. Might go back online later, but for now, I need to finish my work. I really want to talk to so many people but I can't today:(
♥My right to speak. My right to love♥ 7:55 PM
Thursday, April 22, 2010
☺Laughing is the sensation of feeling good all over and showing it principally on one spot C: ☺☻☻☻☻☻☻☻☻☻☻☻☻☻☻☻☻☻☻☻☻☻☻
Tomorrow's the last OFFICIAL Guides activity for us sec 4s :(I guess we all just feel happy and sad at the same time. Though POP is still on the 21st of MAY, we have no time for anymoe activities coz of the MYEs.
Anyways, tomorrow, we got a Biology test to study for. I need to redeem myself after the Chemistry test just now. I kida forgot everything. So, I'll go and redeem myself tomorrow:)
♥andrea♥
P.S. You know, if I just work a bit more harder, I would do a whole lot better in my academics☻
♥My right to speak. My right to love♥ 5:02 PM
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
I seriously believe that the new OM is a weirdo. From his looks alone, he seems like someone who just walked out of Woodbridge Hospital. His frizzy hair seriously adds to this. I also remembered that on his first day at work, he kept flinging his tie over his shoulder and many people made fun of him by doing the same. That was really hilarious.But what I believe is weird with him is that he lectures the 'latecomers' about the most unusual things. Ok, I know Mr Tan used to lecture too but at least, Mr Tan's approach was more of a naggy and soft way to students. And usually, he only talks to students individually. But for Mr Einstine. GOSH.
Just this Monday morning alone, he talked about girls not pinning their hair, the new rules imposed by the V.P. and people in our school behaving like gangsters. Gawd...I believe he was talking about the issue between ACS(I) and SASS when I decided that my ears were bleeding. I just can't stand his lectures!!! You tell him one thing and he replies you with a composition or a short novel. He never misses adding in anecdotes and giving full explanations of his stand.
Damn, he is really trained in writting expository work-.-'''
But of course what can I do?? It is Monday mornings that I hate being a prefect the most. It is when I and many other unfortunate souls spend extra hours bonding with Frankenstine. FORTUNATELY, I only have a month left to endure his lectures. After that, I'm as free as a bird C:
He should seriously get a life.
♥andrea♥
P.S. Life is like a bullet train now. I am suffering from jet-lag :(
♥My right to speak. My right to love♥ 6:28 PM
Thursday, April 15, 2010
I seriously thought that Dom was mad at me just now, but fortunately he wasn't :D That's a relief:) But I must say. YOU GOTTA SMILE DOM C: Smile while you guys can this year coz you might not be able to next year:)....................................................................
Anyway. I read a little post by someone just a while earlier. It made me really wonder: Was I a bit too harsh? I hate loosing friends but you were just a bit too much. I am so sorry to have to break all lines of communication with you but what other choice did I have? It seemed as the only way I could react. Maybe someday, we can be friends again coz you're not such a bad friend after all. But maybe, its not time yet huh? So just so you know, I'll pray for you, like I do for all my friends. And I pray that you will find happiness in the future alrights?
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I seriously owe Mr Ho homework and I still have a compo to finish by tomorrow.
Life is awesome and so is the weather. The weather is ideal but it came at the wrong time. Now, all I wanna do is sleep:( I pray to God to give me strength tonight:)
♥andrea♥
P.S. Congrats to ACS(I) for beating SASS in the rugby national finals :) This was totally random..hahaha-.-...I have nothing better to say now I guess....zzzzzz...
♥My right to speak. My right to love♥ 6:40 PM
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
The week before and the start of this week has really been killing me...I've been damn tired and I believe that since the start of the term, I have yet to get at least 6h-7h of sleep a night...
Anyways, got loads of homework I owe Mr Ho...-.-
And I really forgot so much of my worksheets and notes today...
I guess I was 75% asleep when I packed my bag last night...wait...I mean this morning...
I packed my bag at around 12++ this morning...
Why did I sleep so late??
PHYSICS 'O' LEVEL SPA TT.TT
I will not linger to explain coz its frustrating...
I'm dead beat tired...
But still, my class never fails to bring some laughter into this world...C:
We can always joke around and it makes my day alot:):)
Oh and did I mention how my mood became worse as I went home??
There was this matrep guy in the bus who was totally sickening..
I mean, shouting, thinking that he can sing and just being plain vulgar...
what an idiot...I do need peace in my afternoons you know....
I get pissed at guys like the coz mostly, all they do is act big. And I'm sure the matrep-ish attitude some people display is also a thorn in our sight right?? And though sometimes some of them can be nice, it is a rare thing-.-
Anyways, its raining here now but it was damn hot this morning...I hate the weather pattern, as in seriously suckish..-.-
Let me drown myself in words and numbers now...T.T
♥andrea♥
P.S. Confusion is what I hate.
♥My right to speak. My right to love♥ 5:35 PM
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
You know, I'm really tired. But I feel that I should take a little time out and reflect on the past 2days....Monday:
Total madness. As usual, Monday mornings will never be great for me. I mean how could it?? Not only do I have extended duty till 8++ which eats up much of my precious free-period, but me and a few other unfortunate souls have to deal with Mr Einstine. Yes, the new OM of the school is...Ok, lets say he "EMPOWERS" alot in the wrong way...-.-
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Tuition came after school. I was dead beat afterwards. I returned home at around 10.10pm, went onlinefor like 10-15minutes before facing my lovely mountain of homeworks. And I'm truly sorry I wasn't able to converse with anyone that night. I was in a bit of a blur state to talk. Wrong thingss can come out if I were to start typing.
Today:
First few minutes into the day and I have yet to sleep a wink. What was I doing you ask?? NO, I WAS NOT DOING HOMEWORK. I was polishing my marching boots. [I wish I didn't really bother. The polish had gone the moment I stepped into the sun~it melted:(]
I slept at around 12.15am or so and then woke up at 4am to start packing my uniform. Yeah, I suck. I take about 1h in the morning to pack my stuff. Its called inertia. I move slower everytime. Left the house as usual and headed for school....zzz
Now, to get to school, I take 2 bus rides. One from my house over to bedok interchange and a nice peaceful ride from bedok to simei. But this morning's ride sucked big time. A guy that had thick, uncombed and gory locks of grey hair came in board the bus. He didn't even tap his card, but with his bloodshot eyes and drunk-like movement, the bus driver said nothng. Now you would think that he would reek of alchohol and puke in the bus or something but nope. I expected that but it was different but kind of expected. He smelled of over-powering body odour and the stench of a heavy smoker. My stomach lurched even though he was more than 2 meters from where I sat, and even when he sat like 2 rows away from me, the smell still overpowered the air. The next 15mins of my morning was spent holding myself from running out of the bus and not puking my guts out infront of everyone. Other than getting out of bed, this was the greatest challenge of the day.
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After school were Speech Day rehersals. The sun was freaking hot-.- As I mentioned, the Kiwi I had nicely applied on my boots had melted eventhough I just stepped onto the parade square. But I enjoyed myself by giving out Yupi sweets to not only my Guides but to other sec4 UG Leaders too:):) I like doing such things and I don't know why..hahaha, whoops^___^'''
Anyways, two days and this is the amount of describing I can do:):)
Speech day is on Friday, so it'll be really busy till then I guess. Might go out to study on Saturday with Shafiqah and Rebecca. But then again I have to make the P.O.P. videos...So let me see about that. Saturdays are super busy days. Its the only days I get to catch up on work and finish incomplete homeworks....zzzzzzz
Gonna go and finish up Emaths homeworks...I seriously owe Mr Ho..... :(
♥andrea♥
P.S. Something's bothering me but I really have no idea what...zzzzz
♥My right to speak. My right to love♥ 8:03 PM
