Friday, January 22, 2010
OMG....Today was a total mood swing kind of day...
I'm feeling so pathetic but I still want to talk about my day...
- Sleepy in the morning
- Happy during the 7.10am gathering:)
- Happy to announce the new prefects
- Laughed at Syafiq's reaction..[DAMN CUTE!!!]
- Stressed over surprise quiz...and it was not exactly a surprize...-_-
- Talked over PE Lesson [Mr Chan was not aroud^^V]
- Guys joined in the 'gossip' session soon-_-
- Planned what to do...[you know what rite??]
- Felt very bad...as in I feel like I was a very bad person..
- Felt so relieved and joyful...THANK YOU SOPHIE!!!
- Went out to buy lunch with Geraldine and Eliana after school:)
- Had guides introduction...
- Talked more and more about boring stufffs with the sec ones...
- Played games and strained my voice...Got totally pissed in the proccess...
- Scolded people...
- Felt like they deserved it but I feel bad...
- More drama...
- Went home!!!
Ok, I'm so freaking sorry....
Today, I've been feeling sorry for so many things!!!
And not only that, I'm freaking tired!!!
Sorry to hurt people..
Sorry for not being tactful when I was doing some stuffs yesterday...
Sorry for being so immature...
Sorry for digging out my feelings of the past...
Sorry for really not being able to imagine things that way...
Sorry to scold people I care about...
Sorry to have lost my temper over....nevermind that...
Sorry for going overboard...
Sorry that I am a fickle-minded person...
I don't mean to but, I'M SOOOO SORRY!!!
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Why do things have to be this way in my heart?Why can't I be more open and let go of the past??Its 2010!!!I promised to be good!!!But no, I had to let my emotions take over me once again...Its been 2 freaking years!!!But I'm trying, once again to seal this...No, its not like I want to repeat a so-called mistake...Was it even a mistake to like someone who liked you back but not tell them?Maybe the not telling them part...But it might have been for the better...Its my graduating year, and if this stupid feeling in my heart will cause me to go astray like last year, no way can I let that happen...I know, and I admit, I still have feelings for you SOMEHOW...And as Sophia said, I have THE RIGHT to fall for him...AGAIN....Our english lessons have caused me to think...Its damn hard to let go...And, I hate the NEW YOU...I look for the one I fell for everytime I see you...Its there sometimes...But more than often, I can't see it in your eyes...Just coldness and a freaking JERK...I'll never know now right...?♥andrea♥
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